Indescribable

It usually happens around the same time every night.

After dinner, as soon as I sit on the couch to relax.

Parker beings to move and squirm around in my belly.

I want to remember every moment of this pregnancy. It's amazing to me, a true miracle that we have been chosen to be blessed with. Some nights when my back is aching so badly and I feel my hormones bringing on a mood swing, I think to myself that Parker has a very good chance of being an only child and then he flutters. I love that feeling.

That indescribable feeling only a mother can know and grow to love. I haven't truly wrapped my mind around the overwhelming fact that I will be a mother, Parker's mother. A mom. A baby will one day call me "mommy" and Graysen "daddy". Our son.

Our baby boy has brought Graysen and I closer than I ever could have imagined and I know that bond will only grow stronger with time. I thought I knew Graysen so well once I married him but once you have a child with someone it changes the way you look at them. At least for me it has, my love for my husband has grown beyond measure as he comes home from work and lets me crash into his arms, usually in tears over nothing. I'm beyond grateful.

Baby Ballard has already changed our lives and he isn't even here yet but I can feel him.