love

We are so in love with Parker! Graysen and I got to hold him again last night during the 8pm visit and it was so hard to put him down. We were talking on the way home, of course after I had a good cry, and wondered what we talked about before he was born. He was only born on Wednesday but everything we do and talk about revolves around him.



Parker had a great day yesterday, he got rid of the CPAP machine! It is great progress! He now has a smaller tube in his mouth for oxygen. He still is having irregular breathing patterns but is doing everything he's supposed to for a baby born at his age. They also doubled his feedings so he is now getting 16 cc's which is a little over 2 tablespoons. He is a feisty little guy, the nurses have to change the location of his iv about once a day because he pulls it out of his hands. They put it in his head yesterday and I freaked out a bit! The nurse told us that it was actually the best place for it to go, she said his veins are so tiny and it should do better there. It did let us see his head full of hair much better though!






The nurses in the NICU are amazing! They know exactly what each baby needs and we already have our favorite nurses but they are all great! The Dr. won't give any dates about when Parker will come home. They don't give you much of an exact date until you are headed out the door with your baby!

I want Parker to be home so badly for his first Christmas but I know that we are not in control of that. The Dr. said they usually shoot for the baby's due date which for Parker would be the middle of January. I am trying to act like that is a short time but to me it seems like an eternity! We are so ready for him to be home!





I have my moments of breakdowns and crying but overall I am staying positive and knowing that Parker is in God's hands is making it easier for me. Graysen always brings me back to reality and reminds me that Parker needs this care so we can have a lifetime of memories with him. I know this will all pass but my patience is being tested and I'm learning not to take things for granted.

Graysen says that Parker will live in a bubble when he comes home. It's so funny how protective we are of him already. We are going to do our best to keep him away from every germ possible because he does not need to be exposed to anything coming out of the NICU. We want him to be as healthy as possible!

We are going to visit him this afternoon and so looking forward to it! It's all we can think about. I can't wait to kiss on these tiny toes! It's true love.