No idea

I'm afraid Oscar has no idea what is about to hit the Ballard household. He's been our baby, #1 priority, getting all of our attention for the last year.



This will soon change with Parker's arrival to the world. We plan to keep the two separate and never let Oscar be alone with Parker. Oscar is a little...hmmmmm HYPER, WILD, OUTTAAAAA CONTROL! (His manners matters class was a total waste of 100 bucks!)

I've been reading a few baby books because I feel like I have no clue what to do when Parker arrives. I mean I do but I just want to be extremely prepared. Everyone says it'll come "naturally" and I'll be "good" at it since I babysat a lot of babies and kids in the past.

But this, this is different. Parker will be in my care 24/7. I am responsible for everything he needs. Parker will depend on me. Parker will be our son.

I just worry if I will be a good parent.

I guess we all have fears at some point in time and reading books may or may not be helping me. I am constantly telling Graysen, "Well, last night I read that we need to blah blah blah." And he always tells me to put the books down and we'll figure it out as we go.

That's us. I'm the planner and he's the laid back guy. I often can see our parenting skills in our personalities. I already have an idea for Parker's first birthday and Graysen just shakes his head and laughs at me when I get excited telling him the details I have thought of in my spinning head. We talk about what sports we want Parker to play and where we want him to go to school and think of what he'll be when he grows up.

But the truth is, we have no idea. No idea what our future will hold, only He knows. All I know is that God is blessing us with a baby boy and we are beyond ecstatic. I don't have to read a book to tell you that.


Thanksgiving Day: 33 weeks pregnant